30 September, 2007

I'm gonna take pictures and write a book..

Yeah I know it's been a while..
Last time I wrote anything I was still in Colorado hangin with the world's coolest 2 year old!!
that was almost 4 weeks ago... I miss that little guy... And his dad and mom... My mom and my dad too for that matter... Heck, but that's okay... It's good to miss where you come from, I think, It makes you never forget that you are loved... Now that makes me smile..
I am sittting here thinking about what comes next. Trying to think through the noise of the unoffical block party that takes place every saturday night on the corner across the street from me tends to be a little difficult... But sometimes they play some decent music... No Gypsy Music, but hey we are not all perfect...
Today was my official last day at the Met.
It's been the place where I have worked for the past 12 years.. The frienships I have made there are priceless. And I will say that for the most part it's been a good ride.. But it's time to move on.. I made the decision, this summer, to leave the Met and persue a dream.. Hmm somehow I thought that stepping out of my comfrot zone would be easy... NOT! It's quite unnerving!!
Leaving a place that you have become very comfortable with. A place where you always knew you had it there to fall back on.. It was a safety net..
Left it all behind..
I left it behind to... To quote a line from the Paulo Coelho book "The Alchemist" To persue my own personal legend. In other words I am following my heart and persuing my dream. I'm gonna take pictures and write a book..
I leave for France in two weeks....
At this point there seems to be so many what ifs that it's not even funny... Self doubt creeps in and oh la la is that a killer...
But everyone who knows me seems to think I can do it... I wish I were that confident in myself.
Deep down I suppose I know I can do it. And I know I can do very well at it... But as I said that's way deep down right now. Oh well. For now I will sit and contimplate what the hell I am doing. While listening to the endless round of okay music blaring from the car of some guy who was in charge of music from the fiesta across the street...
Ah New York.
One thing it will be nice to just sit and listen to the silence...
~Mel~

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Good for it Girl! You deserve the best. And you know I've go your back.
Love ya.
BFF ;-}

~Mel~ said...

Yeah thanks
I just got my one way ticket to France.... Not quite sure about it yet... Still waiting on the French to say "Yes we will gladly take your money for the house". Right now the real estate agent that I have been working with is worried that I won't like the house sight unseen.... Oh Lord!! I finally had to say to her that I love Arles... I have been there many many times and I am sure it's a gem... Listen it can be a Caravan and I would love it.... Doesn't she realize that when she said the words washing machine.... I said sold!! I don't have one of those in my apartment here in NY!!
LOL!!!!
I love the French!!!
~Mel~

aart hilal said...

Hello Mel!
I'm also a big Paulo Coelho fan and I don't know if you’ve heard about his blog
http://www.paulocoelhoblog.com
I started as a fan and now I'm collaborating with him and thought that you would like to enter his universe.
Check out the blog, if you want, or subscribe to his newsletter
http://www.warriorofthelight.com/engl/index.html

You'll see a community of warriors of light sharing ideas, dreams and most importantly following their personal legend.

QUOTE OF THE DAY:
"Wherever you want to see the face of God you will see it."

See you there and have a great day!
Aart

~Mel~ said...

WOW!!
Thanks for stopping by my blog, Aart... I am a huge fan of Paulo Coelho. His work has inspired me to take that leap of faith that I needed to persue my own "Personal Legeng" Keep in touch. And thanks again.. I'll put your two sites up as links on my blog so other folks can check them out..
~Mel~

Anonymous said...

Wow! That is a GREAT quote Aart. It's something everyone should remember.
The thing is if we don't see God it's not because He's not there, it's because we have our hearts closed.
With encouragement like that Melissa you can't go wrong.
Love ya and "La bonne chance et la bonne fortune."
Alexa;-}